i haven't been diligent. i should get shot. my promises of giving more of me into this blog has gone off on me abit. Just a BIT.

none's doing quite the interesting in my life. went on dates scored nothing less than the usual hunks who flunked. hunks cos they are to die for, flunked cos hmmm.... fingers criss-crossing not mine man. get it?

oh well, the interesting bit is i learned to let go. maybe not really letting go. ok, a girl gotta have some hope and faith and read between the lines, just 1 good man. yah? please please please send me mine asap! at least send 1 whom i will be fully interested in and genuinely interested in.

that same old game got lost in the way. with friends as it was, i can't just say bye. yeah, sure love stinks and i can't get rid of that stench. but some men just don't get it and women just don't learn it. well... what's all that between friends? wipe it all off...

now i call him an affectionate friend. we are good friends, i sure like to think so. a friend whom i can still rant at. come out for rendevouz suppers. and blast off like a train on the phone and gone all batty in love with visual expressions through MSN. but strictly he is untouchable. no no no no. otherwise i will force him to meet my mom. he will make her day and she will burn him at stake for breaking my heart. don't you just love that scenerio? :) wicked!

i hate myself for how i was over the early days of this week. i was moping, literally immersed in my femme fatale anger. even shopping's gone off me. i chose that path to hate myself and to hate that situation. then i realised men's aplenty! ok this new guy is HOT! they don't make men like dat anymore! i mean he is HELL HOT! he can butter my buns anytime in the wise words of that babe called milfy, berthie otherwise known as bunny the butteress!

i remembered him from school days. those calves. those bloody sculpted things attached to that magnificent ass! he can shake them all he wants man.. i won't mind i promise i will TRY not to touch! oh my! he gets me going... on and on and on... now after 8 bloody years, someone i had not spoken to in school before, not met or anything.. came to me in that oh god i wanna die right now! HUNK! he is a damn damn damn damn i can jus kill myself and smile all the way 6 feet under ground! physically, i am very very very very absolutely attracted! now, me realised not just the calves. me realised the thighs by the way, are very toned, animalistically sculpted like a hunter in the jungle. attached the buns of steel... looks like it would fit perfectly right above **ahem** his hands are hmmmm.... you surely know where i want them! and shit man... i love his chiselled jaw... i can see myself in the near future biting him... like an animal loose.

hmmm.... here i am... alone in the office. no one's in and typing away... hmmmm.... we could have some fun... we could... yeah...

ok... im losing it.

he has a smile so shiny... eyelashes so damn thick and they curl! they should be attached to my eyes man! i think he muz be a bronze greek god underneath those clothes... like really bronzy and shiny skin... silky and smooth and tons of manly muscles ripples through... ermmm.... ok now i'm gon take it easy and slide outta this dreamy thought....

anyway, affectionately me calls my affectionate friend babywipes... cos he is white, smooth and soft and smells weirdly like a baby and use babywipes on his face like it's just meant to be there. i love it when he tells me he misses me. i love it when i tell him about my dates and just hear in his voice that has gone a note flat. and how he will think the shit of these dates oohh... jealousy a potent medicine and a heady pill for someone who can't have me. haahaa rubbish! anyway, yeah for now i am happy. just those i don't think of anythin more than just saying hi to. please don't think of me in any other ways. if i misled u i'm sorry that's all i can say. u can say i had a very good teacher. babywipes aka M.S Gu Ba!