Wait in line
'Till your time
Ticking clock
Everyone stop

Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me

Do you believe
In what you see
There doesn't seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe in
What you see

Nine to five
Living lies
Everyday
Stealing time
Everyone's taking everything they can
Everything they can
Everyone's taking everything they can
Everything they can
Do you believe
In what you feel
It doesn't seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you see

And I'll shout and scream
But I'd rather not have seen
And i'll hide away for another day

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you see

Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone's taking everything they can
Everything they can

i am so sick of my work... i am so sick of the noises buzzing around me when everyone just sinks right into that hyped up state.... i am so sick when everythin is pushed to me rushing to be completed... so sick of all the reports, so sick of having to play meditator, counsellor, advisor, agony aunt to my kids here.... so sick of smiling when the corners of my mouth wanna go down... tired of the blame game... every week is the same... tired of being exhausted... tired of losing my edge... tired of not having the energy to go out... tired of losing my life to this place.... i am a slave...

yeah... a slave....

Your love in all its finery
Tear up the darkness all around me
Until I can breathe again
Until I believe again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wild fire born of frustration
Born of a world that gets me so high
I've no fear at all

But your eyes like midnight fireflies
Light up the trenches where my heart lies
Until I can see again
Find my way back again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wild fire born of frustration
Born of the one love that gets me so high
I've no fear at all

To fall so deep into you
Loose myself completely
In your sweet embrace
All my pain's erased

From your mouth, it's all that I wish
Mercy of your lips, just one kiss
Until I can breathe again
Until I can sing again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wild fire born of frustration
Born of the one love that gets me so high
I've no fear at all

To fall so deep into you
Loose myself completely I
n your sweet embrace
All my pain's erased

他说他很爱她他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬著疑问不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
谁爱谁谁又流乾了眼泪
谁后悔难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎谁又该乾脆离开
谁爱谁谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔谁在忍受著孤独
谁了解他退出她孤独
谁了解谁退出谁孤独
爱得太盲目
谁不满足

this sort of tells what i am inside...
maybe it speaks of my fears and inferior self that i am unsure of how to tell...
maybe this would be the best way to do so...

Here's another speech you wish I'd swallow
Another cue for you to fold your ears
Another train of thought too hard to follow
Chugging along to the song that belongs to
The shifting of gears
Please forgive me for my distance
The pain is the evident in my existence
Please forgive me for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love
I would've warned you, but really, what's the point?
Caution could but rarely ever helps
Don't be down when my demeanor tends to disappoint
It's hard enough even trying to be civil to myself
Please forgive me for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive me for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
to your love love, to your love, to your love
My derring-do allows me to dance the rigadoon
Around you
But by the time I'm close to you, I lose
My desideratum and now you, so
Now you have it, so baby tell me what's the word?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with
What I lay down?
Please forgive me, for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive me for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love

i think it is quite fair to say that we all want someone who induced these peculiar thoughts and
stirred up emotions...


We share a culture same vernacular
Love of physical humor and time spent alone
You with your penchant for spontaneous advents
For sticky and raspy, unearthed and then gone

You are a gift renaissance with a wink
With tendencies for conversations that raise bars
You are a sage who is fueled by compassion
Comes to nooks and crannies as balm for all scars

You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak

You are a spirit that knows of no limit
That knows of no ceiling who baulks at dead-ends
You are a wordsmith who cares for his brothers
Not seduced by illusion or fair-weather friends

You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak

You are a vision who lives by the signals of
Stomach and intuition as your guide
You are a sliver of god on a platter
Who walks what he talks and who cops when he's lied

You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak

我不会怪你 对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏 好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽 而你纤细善良
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤 小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安 的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方 没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占 没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望 小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你 一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂 没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占 没有谁能取代你在我身上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
Woo~ 要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
Oh 绝望的以为
生命只有黑夜 没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占 没有谁能取代你在我身上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you....

Here's the thing we started out friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since U Been Gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since U Been Gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But Since U Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since U Been Gone

How can I put it? You put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah
Since U Been Gone

How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But Since U Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
Since U Been Gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since U Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
You should know
That I get, I get what I want
Since U Been Gone
Since U Been Gone
Since U Been Gone

I’ve been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I’ve been driving you crazy
And it’s keeping you away

So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
‘Cause I don’t wanna waste another moment
In saying things we never meant to say

And I take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I’ve been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I’ll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You’ll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it’s all so overrated
I’m not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what’s real

And I give you just a little time
I wonder if you realize
I’ve been waiting ‘til I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I’ll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You’ll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

So I whisper in the dark
Hoping you’ll hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I’ll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You’ll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Everything is alright if I just breathe
I’ve been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

i'm just so sick and tired of everything now. i just thought that i might needed to let it all out but i starting losing it. i am near the signs of breaking down. i realised in the end i always run back to mel no matter what.

there is just no other one whom i can at this point in my life. i just don't want to meet people who are only made of cotton candy and stuff that exists in dreams to be and never will be. i need the genuine people who will always be by my side. i can't afford to play as the next flavour of the month or be someone i am not. perhaps i am unsure of steps to be taken on how conclusive i see my supposed friends are. perhaps i think a relationship somehow put me at a disadavantage to the world. perhaps at this point i should be glad that after all these years mel is always by my side.

he has never wavered. never run away. never forget. never stop calling. never stop his care for me. in this way, i am blessed after all the cruelty of meeting everyone i can who can say i know no one who stays by me? perhaps i wanted to be like someone i can never be. for as loud as i seemed, that is superficial and not me. my quiet moments conquered what layers me and mirrors my exact fears. i realised i can never displayed that sort of outlook and play a bee amidst the flowers. i can't play up myself for people to like me. perhaps it is one of my greatest fears. i do fear loneliness alot. in 1 way i have no idea how to connect and i fear taking that 1st step. stepping right into the unknown is something i cannot fathom how should i make myself.

i cannot endear myself to anyone nor put myself in a position i did before where i will just end up losing everything. i am about to give it all up. i do not want to play someone's toy for laughter and all that at the end don't make any sense. i can tell someone how much i care but of course risk putting myself in this vulnerable state for laughs.

it is easier to laugh at someone than to applaud that person for speaking from the heart. many a times that sort of seriousness get mocked at and in the end i close the doors.

why only mel? he tells me that he cares and he meant it from his heart. he listens he really does. i hate it when everytime i just have to play this agony aunt just to listen to life stories and pat on the back when the tape is on repeat mode and i heard that story just yesterday. everybody just want to be heard but no one actually listens. i am so tired...

if i can place myself in a shell perhaps that quietness would suits me best. but i am already in this world and i cannot escape my feelings and fears.