i learnt something new again. a kiss through haste, makes the mind all haze. through a kiss, it leads to just an empty thought. thought so clear to all, fogged up in my head. oh well. kisses are sweet but they sure suck sometimes. i guess depends who i kiss.

that one step leads to confusion. that tiny leap creates a fuzzy feel and a buzz in the ears. then again it depends who i kiss. my peepers sure are open now. thank god it's just a kiss and nothing more. more to come, probably i'd die. maybe of a congested heart and a burn so heated up that i will probably blow myself apart. not goin to be that foolish again. we muz think rationally. else why we are called the most intelligent creatures of all? i speak on behalf of the human race. yep including that particular species that probably gives me hives and nappy rash if i'm still a baby.

now i shall just be spending my time to be happy. as what y says we should all hang out together happy and go home happy or even happier. no worries and no tears to shed. no foolishness to regret and no actions to hurt from. we shouldn't spend each weekend drinking into oblivion and in the end, there is nothing for us to move on. maybe it's tiring to be constantly smiling, jarring that muscle there, twitchin uncontrollably. but anyway, it's nicer to smile. it mite lead to somethin good in the end.

all these mixed up emotions are draining and my vision blurred out on me more. the different colours that slipped in between the lines kept me at bay drowning in my feelings. we are all the same. the fear of being taken for granted. the fear of losing that attention we craved. the fear of getting ignored. the fear of being alone. that fear of knowing someone whom you mite just be your honest self which is also your most vulnerable self is exposed and there is no way of retracting your steps taken together a pace you admitted that was too fast.

there are so many fears and emotions we all experienced when it comes down to the crazy little thing called love. is it love in the beginning or just an attraction? is it lust that substituting for love? we just needed someone there. and we can't deny it. else, B.W will come callin all of us delusional. perhaps we are deluding ourselves into believing someone adores us. in the end, we needed to love ourselves and to know what we want before any move is made. in a game of chess, before a pawn is sacrificed, we will need time to consider. any move mite lead to self-destruction. after all, the opponent is always waiting, waiting for us to make that move.

honesty sometimes is taken as vulnerability. often as humans err, humans don't really learn. i speak of myself.