it's time for new year resolutions. oh well. 2006 is finally slipping out of my hands. let's pray the coming year is filled with more peace, more joy, more laughter, more tranquility and more happiness. i'm frankly sick of what this year has brought me.

let's see... hmmm.... what trophies do i wanna collect for the brand new year. it marks 2nd zodiac cycle of my blessed birth. so it better be a good year for all pigs born in 1983. please... i think i shall put a close to a chapter which this year has brought endless encounters to me. men. enough, bye bye. good day and good night. not that i mind the company but i think it is time to move on and out of the daydream of whimsical fantasies that i might wish for. but it never seems to happens. fantasies... let's just keep it fictional.

ta ta, adios amigos! let's just wait awhile longer and keep a fine line between us all. we shall be happier if no boundaries crossed or overrode. i think friends are longer for keeps then such passers-by god knows when they leave. i am at peace, man... hoo!

well... bangkok here i come! i am gonna put myself on a tripping year this time. i wanna go to the smile of smiles and sawadee kaa with everyone! hmmm... hopefully taiwan or HK is in the loop and japan would be a great place to be at end year. i will be truly blessed... with my own money ... looks like i am destined to work like a dog...

back to school... i am gon be a scholar! study study study makes me smarter and happier! hopefully it means a change of working environment and big money! big money! there is a constant fear of not being able to achieve a self-satisfactory performance but i sure hope i can do it at least for myself. i must. academic and career goals are main aims for my better self. i am at peace.

constantly reminding myself these days that i must be calm, collected and always think rationally. especially when it comes down to having fun with the glass bottle and a near-shattering experience of tipsydom... i must stay calm, collected and rational. we must all be rational. let's chill baby... let's unwind and all smiles for the world to see we are happy bunnies in the field.. no rompin activities though... sex is good but overwhelmingly hyped up... we must all be rational.

but still.... retain my kind soul and be nice to strangers and people. lend a helping hand whenever i can to whomever i know needs somebody... but B... my constant harmless medusa... don't wreck anymore pain no more than you need to keep you in check of this reality... but anyone i repeat is dumb enough to play a game with you... let's all be rational and play hunter vs hunter with them... l know a really good way on how to break balls! hoo!

in any case you're wondering i will still be a bitch. i am not playing delusional to whatsoever B.W says... he is the one in need of help... still playing a demented one for role play's sake, keeps him happy and off my back... i'm cool with it. whatever that makes you happy i guess... i am nice friend... but don't try anything ... i will be calm, collected and rational that doesn't mean i am stupid.... rational people plays the meanest game and makes the best rules about ruining you... so beware... like really scared... hoo!!!

i'm keeping a new clean slate and keeping all male trophies for the dust bunnies... i am happy, nope, no room for regrets, life is like woah and that's it.... move on and out of it.. i'm not wasting my time plucking roses for my life's stories and multiple choice questions don't work in this life. keep my mom happy yeah... she's hitting the defined moment of womanhood and i sure don't want her walking down the wrong path. her happiness is my entire life's required minimal satisfaction. we should all keep our parents happy... oh yeah... time to collect bad debts from my sis... her debt's gon hit the anniversary and soon i need to throw a party in celebration of "My GOD! that's how long you have not return me!"

thou shall be kind to animals, old folks, kids, handicapped and the male population except B.W.. that is an uncommon issue i am still trying to displace in my life...