i need to get this out of my system becos i am no god.
seems like being friends is not as easy as it seems.
the hard work required in keeping those you think are meant for the ride
but most would refuse you in the simplest way
not by saying no but by walking away.
they called you an acquaintance. someone to hang around for the short term benefit
someone to hang around for the love of being happy
only happiness brings you acquaintances.
when you tried to be a friend, you went out the mile to be there like how they wrote in books
at the end of the day, the disappearing act just seems so unreal yet it ceases in your mind
that they were ever once there.
they only call you when they needed a good joke.
they said they missed you to keep you happy
so that the days of amusement will not end for them
for you are the dummy played out for their pleasure
they take you on a ride and you crashed and rode the wave with the bottle.
they took you to view the colours of the night, you went home in the black of the night
the light you thought you see, the dark actually you had.
you thought at that time, hey this is life being this happy
like a fool you were and still are when they acknowledged not you.
the day you ceased being fun, the day you were dropped out of their world
those days you thought you were needed
those nights you thought you had friends
all ended in a dream. all black and nothing can be seen
nothing can be felt...

you lost your heart. you stood up and walk away.
you understood this world. humans alike treat humans alike
nothing more nothing less.
maybe this is why we are created.
to be treated of the lesser part that we are.
a mirror war we waged against ourselves.
we feared loneliness we feared silence
we craved intensity but we feared the light when we are exposed
we are addicted to the crowd that we could stand and watch everyone pass us by.
to be the echo of each day ending, knowing that it all belongs to you.

this is the ugliness of humans and we still think that we are right.

i need to right the wrong
that is to move away from the wrong light
you are the wrong light in my life
and i am about to blow you out.