sometimes you have fight your own battle to determine where you stand in the beginning. i have a war to wage and answers to search for but i think i am having some sort of problem here.

i am scared and nervous to play royale battle femme fatale now. i have alot of questions stuck in my head like some old sappy song. i have thousands of whys but no answers to match. i have this need to know but at the same too scared to venture out of my shell.

i need to go read up some self help books to pull me out of this spinning web. i am spinning my own threads to nowhere. i need to check out my juunishi and horoscope for matches made in heaven and some divine answers perhaps only books can provide. a light to define where am i standing now.