yep i am still not asleep. i am tired and my eyes are hurting and my memory still replaying thursday nite. interestingly enough things are set in motion. i got interested in someone again hahaha... i pretty much haf to say that no i am not thinking along the sexual agression but more of a romantic interlude that never really ended. of course if it is meant to be platonic it would be wouldn't it?

ok some relationships are better off platonic otherwise things might go haywire again for me and i will probably get screwed all over again. and i think for once i accept that platonic terms are easier to handle. and some things are better left to be cherished this way. but i think this time.. i found someone or rather i re-discovered someone that i might be able to handle for once. let's leave all complications out cos i really am able to live without those!

for someone who smile when i told him that i ended things earlier with O... there are 2 reasons that came to my mind... either O is a true blue jerk that this guy is rejoicing on my behalf or he probably did liked me and still does. i had been thinking about this long and hard since thursday night and hoped that the latter reason would be it. of course either reason stand strong to me... either he is really a pal beyond the club scene or he is someone i can meet up beyond the club scene... as long as out of the club...

interestingly, he kinda opened up more that nite than i previously heard him. he barely stringed more than 10 sentences the nites i seen him and to have him talked almost away unlike before got me in full motion... i was happy that he noticed my change and to have a compliment beyond the physical appearance is even better. that got me perked up.

him sharing with me some about himself and people pretty much around.. him telling me honestly his thoughts on the people we put ourselves with... i was hoping it is not the words of a drunken lord. i was elated that i could be part of his inner self to share. it was a secret and that led to another to be kept between us. i was happy...

u see... when i was relating about my change and road to walk now in my earlier post, i was not wrong... things will come around... and i think things are looking up. though i played up my optimism, i believed that if it has to fall i will still lived and be happy as before. bcos i know my strengths and weaknesses and chose to play my strengths than to give in to my weaknesses.
he made me happy that nite and kept me smiling even more over the weekend. thank you for that and i hope things might work alittle further from there on...