it's been almost 7 days of absence. i think i am losing it.
perhaps this is my sign...

i just realised that there is something perfectly wrong with me.
somehow there is no time investors who takes a genuine interest in me.
i wish there is someone who will buy me flowers,
someone who will wait for me to knock off work and surprise me with a visit.
someone who will take me for walks and picnics,
someone who just do things without telling me,
just surprise me.
someone who remember what i have said.
someone who will wine and dine me, make romance as it is said to be.

these days, guys who knock on my door are like ... ...
i hate the idea of guys who just want to have fun... if you are attached just stay that way and get away from me. if you are genuine about being friends i am cool with that. just don't come onto me with the wrong intentions.

i am not a toy neither is your own girlfriend...
and i do not have this written on my forehead: "come on, take a ride with me.."

i decided that i am just going to concentrate on my academic and career pursuits from now on. since there is no other option as men as these days are, there are pretty much limited options...

perhaps a change of environment would be good for me... perhaps i should consider jakarta...