LIFE RATTLES 2

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i am happy to know that you are happy. just that too much happiness turn sappy. i wanted to tell some of my friends but i think i shouldn't rain on their parade. actually thought of several things to say but i have totally forgotten after that funny conversation i had with a young friend.
mind boggling. i almost forgot how to work my brain.

anyway, i have decided from today i should be distancing myself from a certain group of people again. i had enough of complications and weird kooks cropping up that wind me up so tight my veins are bursting. i told mr. koh from today i will just skip those cruel thorns. party with the girls and get rid of ugliness in my life.

well.. come to think about it, they are not really wow people as well.

spoke to mr. koh for a long time today. well, had an argument this morning. gosh... i was so over my head. then well kissed and made up. ok, he is the one. to take long walks with, go on trips and just be happy with. he is hyped about the pangkor laut trip thingy that mdm lim is crazy about. i think he is psyched to go there to sleep! he was already planning on golf... gosh i don't want to play with balls there... anyway it is a beach resort. he is only thinking about the bed there.. for sleep mind you. mr. koh is not that kind... yet.

this weekend he will be meeting the BFs. i am excited but 1st i pray he can make the time. he is an errand boy during the weekends and work keeps him up so late. he invented his own language for bedtime talk. i can hardly understand midst the slurs... dream talk.

well, let's just pray things work out ok now. i just don't want to step into something that might either kill me or kill him. or kill the both of us. or kill the people around us. gosh this sounds like world war launching... in short, just don't be the wrong guy.

well.. he did say he wanted things to last... and i am seriously sick of the wrong ones knocking. and i do like him. he is really not like other men i know or knew. but i just don't want to be a tai tai and stay at home and welcome home honey and do bedroom servicing. but he is not that kind. if i ever become a tai tai i solemnly swear that i will spend and swipe the cards to a blazing melten mess of plastic!

he wanted to send me to the clinic today but before we had a little confusion over which clinic. he kept thinking that i wanna pop over to the clinic at clarke quay and almost hit the roof about it. gosh they shouldn't name that place clinic. problematic.

i can't wait to go on a holiday with him. gosh alot of planning to do now. i am still thinking japan or usa. gosh...

b.w just do it. just do it. party as u like and give her the goddamn ring. make her a happy happy bunny and her tail will go POP! and just be happy. im glad for u and hope u will be in an ever lasting bliss and dun go swaying that is all.

oh yeah i rem i had this really weird dream last night that i was like woah!

i dreamt of apple. all in different settings. all the time in my dream he was having sex with this girl. i donno who is she and cannot remember her face. it was so weird. we were chatting just like dat on this really huge bed. this girl came over and laid on him. but we were like both too engrossed with catching up to bother. then the next thing uncle marv came and talked and before i realised that lady mounted him and just whacked him off. that was vertical sit ups amazing race. next we were in a super market and that damn bed came along with him and his partner racing against time. he was telling not to worry things are going to work out. telling me to let go of my unhappiness. and telling me someone will be talking to me soon.

his voice was his soothing self and that self pumper went on like she is horse riding but he was like a god in my dreams. so assuring and confident. he suddenly became this father like figure to me. gosh the only thing i can get over is watching that lady stuff his dong up her. gosh. that was some kind of porn gospel worship thing i donno.

iz jus that his words got to me. i was crying in my dream. i felt so sheltered suddenly as in taken care of and so loved. maybe apple is not the right god but he was adorned in this golden hue that blazed so warm.

but he definitely scared me in my dreams. woah like really woah.

12:28 AM

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