i am now torn into 2.

when i saw the sheep, i was scared but hopeful. nonchalent but trembling. wanting but distancing. wanted to crawl under my own skin but i realised i was already in my own skin. he leaves me just so lost. the scary thing is about being hopeful and optimistic. one side of me just wanted to play it cool and that hey i moved on and stuff. but it was like some magnetic force pulling and pushing me away. i felt distinctly separated inside, the forces within...

but yeah.. i have to stop being so optimistic about things. it won't change. since i can't hate the guy and make the situation better. i need to find another way to escape.

time to hunt.

****.... just kidding...****


ima hunting queen... xena the warrior now hear me rwoar!!!!
ahem! **constipated rwoar**