soree... my last entry was hmmm... unfinished if u noticed. lost internet connection. nobody likes me enuff. oh well. that is so not true.

ok.. continue. talk.

well.. she said stuff i didn't think everyone would get it. i mean was i tat obvious? come on there are other sheep around rite? why him? ok in the 1st place i was stupid to be that stupid to that extend of stupidly falling for that stupid himself. guess this world without the stupids it would be any nicer. and i know this gives b.w a kick right up the ass and he muz be laffin right through his ass.

i gave b.w. the greatest orgasm just becos of this shit. i love my stupidity sometimes. and i cannot stop this side of me. well, yun's a nice girl but too girl. no point going after and chew his ass. after all, none of u are SUPPOSED TO KNOW! ok, i need to send this bunch of friends for acting classes! act nonchalent!!!! that is the key word!

he ran, i fell and opps they all found out. i am still touched that someone tried to get a bite out of him for me. perhaps justice still reigns. well, it don't matter anymore. i am over it. and over him. i chose to let it go. somehow the tears that part i haven't quite got the hang of it. hurt yeah, angry nope, disappointed yes. very. but things are already like this. but asking him to read my blog?!?!?! i was very inclined to go to bed right then and pray that was a bad dream i had. gosh! don't ever read my blog. even tho i said yeah and i beg and pray he does that. but actually i don't mean it. gosh i would die and die and bring b.w. back to where he belongs before i allow him to read! i need to go primitive and use a pen and paper to keep my random thoughts to myself.

if he knew how i felt. please don't. it is so hard to be standing so close yet treating each other with implicit silence. he is really not a very nice person. well, yun helps to ease the pain with the wisdom pearls out of her mouth yesterday. yeah, it made me realise he might just go old and lonely and just die like dat. ok, i am not that mean. nope i don't wish that to happen.

GOD! what am i saying?!?! i should really just curse and swear at him but shucks i can't. things like this get me into trouble.

yep... i would like to thank people who are nosy enough for me to at least say they care. yup. the thing is the person i least expected to say anything happen to be his brother. wow. justice reigns really.

can't say that i really let go. maybe i do still hope. but i have to otherwise i might need like 100 pills to swallow for a trip down under and that being a one way ticket. nope stupid yeah not that stupid.

yeah heard someone tellin me something i shouldn't hear again. gosh. leave me alone. why can't men and women just be friends for goodness' sake. muzt the line be that clear? gosh...

then this and now that. i'm going crazy here. look i have someone i think im happy with. just leave me be ok? gosh. i want to just move straight on and never looking back in anger or regret. live life with no regrets. that is lame and passe but yeah.

but i think now i am starting to like girls. gosh! this is so bad.
met this lady really hot. met this butch... gosh i am in love.
mr. koh's gon kill me if only he knows.

wahhaaha threesome is such an impossibility.

S is really cute with her cosplay gackt style... gosh gosh gosh...

another 19 yr old in the bag. berth u are right. too many dragons sinking their claws into us. hahaha
im still hot yeah... just don't call me a mama... someone did and suddenly i was like locked in MILF mode. gosh....

that is so not very nice...

got a young guy working here now. under my direct training and orders. ahaha i could send him to berth for specific training courses that might help him in life. wheeww! she will kill me...

i overspent and what is new?

milf.. jus call me milf... hahaha S i am so into u...
i am trying like really trying to curse someone but the words come to mind but my mouth is like wide shut!

i am just so cute... yep.. that is what S said...
shucks can't stop thinking.... save me.

someone.