很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我 每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信 自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 你改变我

你是情人 还是朋友
还没勇气 想得太多
你的世界 如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

i am feeling this song quite a fair bit lately, my biggest fear is not to have this last longer than a dream. it is warm and cosy to be in love but hard work to keep it going. this week, i am feeling alittle lost and more what ifs came into my head and raised mini wars between sides of myself. you do not need a rope to tie someone down or bind them to you. sometimes emotional threads are too easily torn too. this is my dilemma and one of the "what ifs" great debates...

that silence that lasts too long rings loud in my ears and heart. suddenly i felt suppressed. my fear builds up and my senses heightened to impossibility. i want to believe yet more questions popped open cans of beans and worms that i no longer know what i believe.

it felt gloomy on my Monday & Tuesday until this wee early morning. till now i still think that it is some sort of a dream maybe a test. i realized how much i came to rely on a simple message, a text or conversations over the net. i hate myself for being this vulnerable, so dependent that i refused to recognize this side of me. i choose to deny than to acknowledge that i am only human built with female parts. sometimes i hate being a girl.

this makes me question myself further. i doubt myself for the fear that i may just end up driving away what i really want.