i promise myself that tomorrow night if this repeats, i shall swallow a pill and hope sleep catches up with me and bring peaceful dreams.


Sleeps with Butterflies
Tori Amos


Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere

I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy




Sleeps With Butterflies - Tori Amos



Not All Me
Alanis Morissette

I wear their faces all on top of my face
I am the perfect target screen
For your blindly fueled rage
I bare the brunt of your long buried pain
I don't mind helping you out
But I want you to remember my name

It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on

Past riddled rage
I see the buttons I engage
With my dignity in place?
I'm all too happy to assuage

It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on

Lest I find my voice
Find the strength to stand up to you
Lest I stay to my limit
And only take on what is mine to

We are a team
I'm here to help mend and re seam
All I trigger unknowingly
A job I hold in high esteem

It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on

It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on
I'll only take some of it




Alanis Morisette - Not all me.MP3 - Alanis Morissette



I decided not upload the MVs, angry white chick songs are usually too cynical and not men-friendly. nor ever-merry-happy-chasing-butterflies-with-that-damn-butterfly net-rainbows in their hair chicks would understand. everything is supposed in pastel and neon so that it resembled a long term ward room in your local mad house with a citizenship VIP status badge. i do not hate happy people nor discriminate against people with dysfunctional minds. i just don't understand simple happiness anymore. the more i tried, it gets too complex and i wanted to apply for a LTSVP for the happy woodsville too. i am almost as dysfunctional, sometimes.