do you believe in destiny?

i wish i can say that i don't and walk away from this topic coolly.

i do and i still do.

someone once said this to me:

life just works in funny ways. u travel round the world, search everywhere, n u finally find someone suitable for u from where u missed her n she was so close too

sometimes u find someone really close to u, then u gradually become afraid that as the days go by
u'll lose that person
so every min, every second counts


all these words shook me up. i tried not to believe in destiny after all falling down is a painful thing to do.

but i fell again. this time it is harder to get up.

i wake up in the morning. i try to stay blank in my head.
just one word or thing or maybe as i steal a thought everything just floods back through.

i sat down on my bed and read through a day of conversation. just one day will do.
i miss those days. i miss each word we said, shared and exchanged. how naural this feeling is. everyday...

my eyes went blurred and couldn't read anymore. each word i went on, my tears could not be held back. love is really a painful emotion to feel.

kyoko is being taught that that is the most important emotion any human can have.
i rather not take it anymore.

i asked myself again if i believe in destiny.
i still do.
just that the stars may have disagreed and he got away.

he is the one who got away.
and my heart just keep breaking apart each day.