narcissism

The term narcissism' refers to the personality trait of self-love, which includes the set of character traits concerned with self-image or ego. The terms narcissism, narcissistic, and narcissist are often used as pejoratives, denoting vanity, conceit, egotism or simple selfishness.

Freud believed that some narcissism is an essential part of all of us from birth.

I copied this from wikipedia.

Yes, I am a Naru-chan myself.

a brand week is coming in a matter of hours. somewhat depressing.
i need to get out of this rut.

i need to recover soon, to hit the microphone with my powered up vocals on karaoke night. so that i can inhale all those bubbles i want. i am craving for coke. i have no idea why. but i would not say no to martinis. suddenly i don't feel any food craving. which is good. i am depleting body mass in a "no pain no gain my ass" way.
i found a sudden love for soups. carrot soup with curry powder or pumpkin soup.

i am not that body image conscious.
yes i am, stupid.

my skin is so dry. i am turning into berth. what would emotions means in dollars if you can only see the celines, pradas or chloes in this world? that is not me. but oh well... sometimes being ignorant is pretty healthy. too much acknowledgement is overkill to this society. is this how we are all brought up?

it is easier to deal with each other through means of emails, smses, msn, pm or whatever as long as we don't hear each other's voices. the irony is that we could accept just about anything and everything as long as it stays virtually away and distancing itself from harming us emotionally or adding to the demental image we create to shell us in.

perhaps that is what that is stopping me from making a call.
a voice places too much fear in each of us.
perhaps one day i will marry a man from god knows where and we would have one of the most successful marriages in internet history. our babies would be so beautiful all created courtesy of Photoshop and whatever gadgets that could depict real life or what we think it is.

the naru chan in me is painting images of beautiful life we learn, read and watch about from books, fairytales and movies. is that what i can achieve? we yearn so much for normalcy but in fact that is what that is driving us further away from life itself. we are all adnormal beings to begin with. but with all that we are taught, we are finding it difficult to fight and resist we think it is right and should be done or should have been done.

sometimes we learn too much for our own good.

like why should i take showers everyday? what in the name of science proving that it is only right to do so? who says smoking is bad? we are all going to die eventually. if that is stopping the way how we would die? does it really matter once you know you are going away from this world, leaving an imprint of what you used to be?

i subscribed too much to what others say, this works against my naru chan.
somehow i think i am an oddity that no one notices.
just because i don't scream in the middle of the street does not mean i do not exist.

how do we categorize humans?