had a good friday. :)
a literal one.

it is like "oh god finally!"

i was tripping for sure. feels good to get some after a long time. without having to make any effort. the art of being a female comes in handy. at times.

funny thing is to have a friend, an old friend to send me on my way to a happy ending to the day. after a dry spell. i cracked up at the thought of it. the text message that came later. i think my little friend felt a little embarassed. it was funny.

playing sneaky games. reminds me of those i used to play with. feels good hanging out with a young one. i feel like a vampire all of a sudden. devoured them whole.

it wasn't a real craving but since i am out. dying of thirst and thoughts of it invading my mind. so might as well.

once for the practice and to smell of what it smells like and second to keep the bones warm for the rest of the night or rather wee morning hours. i like the sneaky part especially. it made me feel 16 again. then again, i wasn't 16 when it happened. i did not do the sneaky back then. i remember the cupboard very well.

the rush went to my brain and right to the end of my toes. tingling sensation. wonder when it will be next again for me.

what keeps the adrenaline is to know that my fortess is still well guarded against any emotional invasion. perhaps that is what made me feel really good.

i wish i could bite the apple besides holding it in my hand. a real bite like what a vampire would do.

maybe i will keep the biting for the next episode.

i wasn't being naughty. just on a mission to lose a bit of control.
no point being stoic and lonely.

my toes went taut on me.