had this weird dream last night.

dreamt that i fell in love a hazy romance. someone i barely knew, he came to earth like a bronze god and bad acne scars, still he is cute. he is quiet, simple yet romantic that pulled my heartstrings and made my toes tingle.

the day after i said "ok, let's date", he took me out for a candlelight dinner. sure, candles are needed, it was dark as hell.
the place looks cheap, smelt of sweet love, poverty yet peaceful and happy. he held my hand from his side of the table while i draped over like a kitty cat.

next thing, not sure why but i started to call up a friend. to ask when is she collecting the pants that i bought for her. she got angry, i was upset. i stormed away just to see jie jie carrying his armpit pooch and a big brown paper bag. telling me it's his birthday and he wants us to celebrate with him.

i followed him back to our table and the whole place lit up like Paris on fire. i realized that it is not a restaurant that i am in, it is a clinic. some rundown place filled with ladies of the night. an abortion palace, a night kingdom for the runaways and the birds of the forbidden paradise with a dollar bill sign.

there my prince sat in a daze, happily smiling as i waltzed in struck dumb and astound. jie jie just turned and said "come sit, i bring my cake out. Pretzel, Stop moving around you bitch!"...

mr bronze came and a gave a warm hug. and i jolted to life on my bed.

i wonder who is he. he seemed so real, i could see his eyes, the bridge of his nose, the clear sheen as the warmth creeps over us in that dank place. his scars are prominently affixed in my head right now. his small yet bright eyes... does that means this guy is real????

who the hell am i fantasizing about???????

i remembered the telephone war with P, that was intense that i wanted to call her today to give her a piece of my mind. jie jie made me extremely tired after knowing that i stepped into the place mommy says i cannot go. only he will make me do things i would have never do... but i know these people so it is ok to see them beyond reality and in the realm of the sub-conscious....

yet i see that guy. really my mind is going tick tocking thinking where did i pick up this face.

ma goodness... this dream is beyond words!

1) i am not in love with anyone (really...)
2) i have not been staring at any guys (really... there are no men out there)
3) i have no other cravings (really... right now it is only steamboat)

does that mean i will meet this guy soon? i hope he is of the human kind.