this is so pathetic of me. i actually cried. after quite a while of having no more tears in me. having this song in my mp3 player, ignoring what it means to avoid feeling down and funny inside like any girl would. but i ignore it no more, watching this actually makes me feel at peace, in a fairy tale - like state. i am induced to a stupor, drowned silence.

who in this world would stand aside and not do a thing? i do not know such a nice guy. perhaps that is why this is only a song. taeyang is stealing hearts.

still i cried at the end.

Taeyang
Wedding Dress
Romanized lyrics in the video




monday ended on a sharp steep note. tomorrow i think i will be back for more crunching... i have so much to do with this party and i cannot ignore my real work. i have ignored it far too long by my own standards.

i need a hug and a strong martini to knock me flat out. no more aching shoulders.
i need some excitement instead of writing about how my left shoulder is behaving each night. i need a man.