to be honest, i am completely disappointed in my friend.

someone i know for years, however one text just changed everything. i realized i did not know him that well as i thought. this sentence is starting to get too familiar in my life.

i thought our friendship means beyond the word love. even if any one of us are dating, we would still be unchanged. almost 1 year gone without much contact, words exchanged are always sentences unfinished. calls made are always hung up before the message is said. each day passes, we end up forgetting each other. i admitted i did not want to stay in contact that much. i am not jealous of the relationship that he is currently having. i am happy for him as how much ideally i should be. but not when a step is taken to forsake friends who stood by you all this while.

now just a text to say "yeah like bye forever cos' i am putting a ring on her finger" and a cold invitation sent without any meaning behind it. i do not feel how wanted would my presence be required. we just met last saturday, knowing it is my birthday not a word to me. not even a greeting. yet all they can say is that they want to celebrate with me. things are getting so unnatural that we are just talking for the sake of appearance. things are getting rancid here.

it is good to be in love but not to forget that you are not alone in this world and just with your girl / boyfriend. priorities have indeed swapped. his decision made me doubtful a year ago and it had not changed.

with all the reasons and the uncertainty he had then, it seared through my mind knowing that he might regret his decision later. being a friend whom i loved, i really do not wish that to happen to him especially knowing his character.

now i really do not know how to react to that message nor to that girl next to him who i addressed as "er sao". honestly it is a show to call her that and now i am unsure if that is the case. i am really disaapointed with this person i took to be a friend.

we have drifted far beyond what the world has been to.